The vision for Purpose in the Pain was born through a deeply personal journey of faith, healing, and discovery.

Years ago, I was introduced to Christine Caine and was captivated by how God transformed her pain into purpose. Watching how she refused to allow her past to slow her down, but instead allowed God to use it to propel her forward, planted a seed in my heart. That seed grew even deeper when I became part of the Propel Women Cohort and experienced firsthand the power of gathering with women whose lives are centered on Christ.

In that experience, I witnessed something beautiful — women encouraging one another, speaking truth over one another, and creating environments where the presence of Jesus was deeply felt. It awakened a deep calling in me to devote my life's work to creating environments where women can encounter the presence of Christ and be reminded of who they are in Him.

My desire for this program is deeply personal.

I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse that began when I was an infant and continued throughout my childhood and adolescence. For many years, I wrestled with questions that countless survivors carry: "Why didn’t God protect me?" and "Why did this happen?"

Then one day, while sharing my story with a friend, she said something that changed my perspective forever.

She said, “It’s so beautiful how God protected your desire to still have a relationship with Him.”

In that moment, I realized something profound.

While I had been focused on all the ways I wish God had protected me, it turns out He had been protecting the most important thing about me the entire time — my relationship with Him.

That realization began a new season of wrestling with God. I found myself praying, “I need this to make sense. I need the things that happened to me to have a purpose.”

For a long time, I held tightly to the phrase "purpose in the pain". I believed the purpose had to be found in the outcome of my story — in what I would eventually do with it.

But during a Propel Women conference, the Lord asked me to surrender that phrase.

He gently showed me that I had been searching for purpose in what my story might become, when in reality the purpose had been present all along.

The purpose was never the pain.

The purpose was never the outcome.

The purpose has always been Jesus.

My relationship with Him was the very thing He had been protecting the whole time.

That revelation became the foundation of this program.

Purpose in the Pain is not about trying to make suffering make sense or forcing a redemptive outcome from trauma. Instead, it is an invitation for women to bring their story before the Lord and discover that their relationship with Christ has never been outside of His care.

Many women who carry childhood sexual abuse into adulthood wrestle with deep shame, confusion about their identity, a loss of their voice, and the feeling of being unseen or in some cases, too seen.

This program exists to create a compassionate and Christ-centered space where women can gently reflect on their story, rediscover their identity as daughters of God, and encounter the goodness of Jesus in the midst of their journey.

Through scripture, guided reflection, and supportive community, women are invited to:

• release beliefs that were never meant to define them
• rediscover their identity in Christ
• reclaim their voice and dignity
• experience the healing presence of Jesus in their story

More than anything, my hope is that women walk away from this journey with a deeper intimacy with God — an understanding that their story does not disqualify them from His love, but can become a place where they encounter His goodness more deeply.

The long-term vision for Purpose in the Pain extends beyond a single cohort.

My prayer is that this work grows into a movement where survivors are supported, encouraged, and equipped to lead others toward healing and faith.

I hope to see:

• cohorts hosted in churches and communities
• survivor-led healing communities
• resources that support counselors and ministries
• leadership development for survivors who feel called to guide others

Above all, the vision is simple:

To create spaces where women encounter the presence of Jesus and begin to see their story though the eyes of the One who has never stopped seeing them.